Why haven't you spoken to me in days? I really miss talking to you.. Sometimes I go online waiting for you to speak to me. But I guess either you're busy or there's some other girl who has your attention now... Like I am genuinely sorry that I can't or shall I say won't be going to the party. I really want to be there.. I really want to see you but i'm too scared. What happens if you hate me? What happens if i'm like nothing you remembered? What happens if I disappoint myself? I hate expectations and disappointments. They're the worst feelings that hurt the most. But you didn't even seem bothered by the fact I wasn't going. Thanks a lot. You invited me yet you didn't even attempt to persuade me to still go at all and this just shows the lack of determination and lack of excitement for me to go. I feel like shit now because of this. You're a jerk. A big headed stupid jerk. A stupid fool too. I feel as if this was the breaking point for us... I guess that we will probably never meet up in real life, this is probably the end of "us"... You let go of me so don't regret it. I already regret wasting a year of my life waiting for you. Maybe I was the stupid fool, not you.